It wasn’t long ago that I was getting into my wedding dress, walking down the aisle, and saying vows that I intended to keep forever. It wasn’t long ago that you loved me more than anything else in the world and told me I was the only person you ever wanted to grow old with. It wasn’t long ago that I felt like the most loved woman on the planet because my best friend was by my side and promising to stand by me until the end of time. It wasn’t long ago but it feels like an eternity has passed since then.
My eternity has been a whirlwind of trying to understand what happened. Of trying to make sense of why you left. The months that have gone by and the year that has slipped away has left me with so many unanswered questions but at the end of each day I remind myself to be thankful.
So, I thank you. I thank you for our good moments and for the times you did stand by me and protect me. I thank you for the laughter we always shared and for the memories that we created in our short time as a couple and our even longer friendship. I thank you for the flowers, the cards, the little things you did. And I thank you because I know, in those moments, you were happy too.
I thank you for leaving when you did. Even though I’m still trying to understand why you went about it the way you did, it has made me a stronger person and helped me realize that maybe some things aren’t meant to last forever. It has helped me figure out my life and start over while my ambition is still fresh and my desire is still in tact. Thank you for not prolonging the hardship and forcing me to face the world on my own while I’m still young. It has made me grow my independence and helped me to see the world in a new light, and for that, I thank you.
I thank you for the many lessons you have taught me throughout the past decade. First, you taught me that love really does exist and that, despite distance or boundaries, it can live in someone’s heart no matter the circumstance. You loved me despite many circumstances and for that, I thank you. Second, you taught me that from the spark of friendship can come something greater. You were patient and you believed, and for that, I thank you. After you left, your actions continued to teach me, and so, the third thing I learned from you is that sometimes even the strongest fires burn out. You taught me that even good marriages can fade into nothing and you taught me to be more careful with my heart in the future. You taught me that maybe love isn’t truly enough to keep a marriage afloat. Because God knows I loved you, and I always thought you felt the same.
So, without hate or animosity, I look back at the past three years since our first dance as husband and wife and all I can do is thank you. Thank you for the good times, for the hard times, for the laughter, and the tears. Thank you for helping to shape the strong person I am today and for being a big part of my life for a small slice of time.
I wish you well.